Saturday, June 2, 2012

Thoughts and Lists

The fashion show and exhibition opening were a great success. People are actually buying my craft. I gotta say, it is the best feeling in the world.

I love what I do.

I really do.

A new chapter of my life is about to begin.  Post college. I've spent the past two years learning copious amounts of information relating to textiles, art and craft, design, and entrepreneurship. It's been a lot of hard work, and sometimes when I think back on it all I can't believe I survived. Knowing that I did indeed make it to the end, makes me feel so proud though. I often refer to myself as being weak, I'm not sure what I mean exactly when I say it, but I do know that when I reflect on the past two years, I feel strong, strong and accomplished. I think that's confirmation that what I'm doing is right.

“if you love what you do, you’ll never work a day in your life” - Who even said that?

I have a sweet story to share with you all now...
When I was a little girl in the second grade at St. Augustine's Elementary, I really looked up to my principal Mrs. Hallett. Roberta Hallett I believe. I just thought she was so sweet, kind, and pretty. She always smiled at me and I would smile back at her.

One day, because I liked her so much, I drew her a picture of a dog and brought it to her at her office. She began raving over what a great drawing it was and how I was so talented. She said to me, "You should be an artist when you grow up!" To which I replied, "But, artists don't make very much money." Haha, oh my, I wonder where I heard that from? Anyways, Mrs. Hallett proceeded to tell me about her son Bob, who was a musician. She explained that he played in a band and didn't make very much money, but he loved what he did and that's what matters in life. She told me things like God gave each and every person a special gift and that money doesn't lead to happiness.

I remember the feeling of my little mind being blown. I remember replaying the conversation a million times. There literally hasn't been a day that I haven't thought about it.

She changed my pessimistic outlook, and made me feel like I could achieve absolutely anything in life. I'll always be so thankful to her for believing in me, and taking the time to explain what happiness truly is to my 7-year-old self.

By the way, her son Bob is Bob Hallett form Great Big Sea. Although they weren't playing many gigs back in 1995, they've certainly turned into a big success. I love this part of the story. :)

So.  Now that school is nearly done, what do I do? Where do I go?

Well, some things have been decided for me.

- My application to the Craft Incubator was unsuccessful, at this time. I've been encouraged to reapply at the end of the summer. I've got to improve my game between now and then, I have to get one of those studios.

- I won't be going to NY to do the millinery course I have been talking about for the past year. I didn't get the grant I was banking on to make it possible. Although the tuition is paid for, I can't afford to get there, live there, and miss out on an entire month of income. I will reapply for the grant every year until I get it.

- I'll be back at Blue Moon Pottery this summer. This will be my third summer there, and possibly my last. I am really hoping to be working at my business full-time by next summer.

I have a lot of little goals and things to look forward to this summer!

- graduation

- traveling to Toronto to see Roger Waters perform The Wall!

- ordering lots supplies

- experimenting with new design ideas

- producing, producing, producing!

- dyeing with local plants, lichens, mushrooms

- working on my Incubator application.

- a trip to Bonavista and Corner Brook

- camping at every available opportunity

It's going to be a good summer I think!